July 31st

I haven't posted in a while which really needs to change because I seem to do better when I post.. My uncle finally lost his battle with cancer the other day he had been fighting it for 15 months. We didn't have a great relationship but I still feel bad. I have the right to, right? I've been staying at my sisters house which has been a bit fun besides my bulimia and cutting has been flaring up. Ill have to go back home the 10th because a couple days after my grandpa has to undergo open heart surgery. I really hope it goes okay because I know I'll get worse if it doesn't. I always find a glimmer of hope that it'll get better but it never does. How long do I have to keep holding on? I'm losing my grip. This guy I'm really into doesn't seem to be into me anymore and that hurts too. There's another guy that keeps complimenting me because all he wants is sex. I just feel so alone most of the time and it really sucks. I'm glad to see I haven't lost any followers, it makes me feel a bit better. xx -Dani.